Why I study in Universiti Malaysia Sabah???

Is it Universiti Malaysia Sabah (UMS) is my first choice in applying IPTA? Is it Computer Science is my ideal course? No, UMS is not my first choice, my first choice is UPM or UTM, no longer in memories; however, Computer Science also not my first choice and ideal course, my ideal course is Interior Design but IPTA didn’t offer this course, if not mistaken, Landscaping is my first choice in choosing the courses. Why I can’t study in UPM or UTM? My STPM pointer only 2++, how come UPM and UTM will take in me? Actually my result before can consider as good in my school, why my STPM result can become poor like that? Now, my classmates and friends almost taking Medic, Pharmacy, Engineering, Accounting, Law and other professional courses, and why I’m taking Computer Science? They also keep asking me why I’m taking this course, I’ll discomfiture sometimes. Comparisons are odious, content is better than riches, so now I’m custom makes all things easy. Every why has a wherefore, every family has a skeleton in the cupboard, every day is not Sunday, displeasure case happened when I’m still study in form 4. During that time, when I’m watching Andy Lau’s movies, I’ll shed tears; when I’m listening Andy Lau’s songs, I’ll shed tears also. Don’t know how come will like that, especially listening to the song “练习” (the meaning is practice) and the lyric “我已开始练习, 开始慢慢着急, 着急这世界没有你, 已经和眼泪说好不哭泣, 难道是继续爱该怎么继续, 我天天练习, 天天都会熟悉, 在没有你的城市…” (The meaning of this lyric: I already practice to stop weeping in the world without you, I practiced day in and day out be familiar with the city without you), my tears shed non-stop. Since this case, I am not now that which I have been, I totally can’t concentrate on my study, induce my results become worst. Also, I don’t want my family discover that I can’t accept to/still care about the past. They also faced the same problem too, so I don’t want incommode to them. I’m pretending that I still can happy like before, always keep smiling, laughing, and joking. Easier said than done, when I closed the door, I try to force myself keep smiling but I totally can’t do it, maybe I can’t deceive myself anymore in front the mirror. A burnt child dreads the fire, MISTRESS is my NIGHTMARE, and I hate mistress evermore, maybe I’m still young, it is Greek to me. Fortune favors fools, UMS my 4th choice pitched on me, so I can continue my further study in UMS. There is no place like home, there is not Penang, there is not Perak, there is also not Kuala Lumpur, I have no parent and siblings beside me there, everything must do by myself. Experience is the best teacher, I really appreciate that government/ Ministry of Higher Education give me the opportunity to study in UMS.

“Let things take their course.” ^.^